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I have seen it done

My motivations are fucked up

They point two ways

Scarred by rejection

Hidden behind smiles

I find myself disillusioned

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I did everything right

Was honest and loving

Opened my heart

In a flurry and frenzy

Honesty-pushers call me a liar

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What’s left for this soul of mine?

When missionaries deceive

When pastors mislead

The elders say submit

Then give you the lip [Why should I be better?]

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The moral highbrows

Use it for immorality

Nothing left

But selfish smarts

Against their own game

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Humility is overrated

When used as a tool

To use others

For your own gain

I have seen it done

I have seen it done

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Snowflake

Discovering that it actually makes logical sense for the universe to basically come from what our minds would consider ‘nothing’ has been quite a mental trip for me. Despite the fact that I feel confident that I can lay out the psychological reasons why it is difficult for me to accept I still find myself repulsed by the idea. I know that repulsion to an idea does not make the idea impossible and that is where I felt I just needed to resign myself to the conflict.

However, a recent thought popped into my head that gave me a completely new and beautiful perspective – and I thought I would share it.

There seems to be a connection between the theists perception of rarity and their confident assertion the universe and particularly human beings were designed. Let’s try to ignore the fact that if life was common in the universe they would argue that it is common because obviously God designed the universe for life and yet when faced with how rare life is they get all goosebumpy and argue this is evidence that it could not have just happened. To be quite honest, I grant them that life does not just ‘happen’. We never see things that just ‘happen’ because there is always a process of nature or some unknown force or intelligent being behind every event. However, it is a categorical mistake to assert that a being and not a process is behind something we know little about.

Consider the vastness of the universe… infinite stretches of space. Trillions of stars and planets and comets and black holes and galaxies and endless combinations of all the above. Now consider something else. What precise conditions are required to produce a single snowflake? You have to have an atmosphere the right temperature and with the exact right humidity. There has to be a planet with water and a star at just the right distance to produce air currents. The atmosphere has to have just the right sized dust particles so that water can condense into tiny frozen particles. There must be a clash of cold air with warm air to produce the storm. The list could go on. The point is simple: in our universe a single snowflake is a miracle. For all we know, ours is the only planet that has just the right conditions to produce a snowflake.

But when snowflakes happen… they happen millions at a time!

Now consider: the snowflake is generated by completely natural processes which can all be identified and even reproduced.

Then it clicked.

Life is like a snowflake.

With just the right conditions, why could nature not produce a life generator just as it can produce a snowflake generator?

Just consider all the possibilities that nature may hold: the combinations of conditions we cannot even grasp or imagine yet. The right mixtures of temperatures, elements, atmospheres, lakes, genetic material, proteins… and on and on.

And now it makes sense to me. All those scientists slaving away in their labs trying to find the right conditions to produce life. They aren’t stupid, they are like the first scientists who were trying to analyze the right conditions to produce a snowflake.

Imagine that a million years from now a civilization finds records of our stories of snowflakes, but the atmosphere can no longer produce them for some reason. Imagine how hard it would be for their scientists to create a snowflake generator without being able to watch snowflake generation happening naturally.

That is similar to what scientists are trying to do in the lab to produce the right conditions to generate life. We don’t even know what the simplest life form possibility is, but for all we know at some point in the past natural conditions were reached so precise and so rare that a life generator was born, spewing out little living creatures en mass like snowflakes – probably one of the rarest events in the universe.

And shoot… the universe itself may be like a snowflake… perhaps with just the right conditions of “nothingness” entire universe systems can be spewed out en mass by a universe generating cloud of nothingness.

So it happened, in that one moment walking down the sidewalk – watching that rare and beautiful phenomena we call snow that I often take for granted – that I was filled with awe at just how precious and rare life is.

- Josh

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No God on Twitter

It’s true. No God on the top twitter topic! I am very amused. One would hope that God would see this coming and do something about it. Since he is not doing anything about it, perhaps we should instead resort to the scientific explanation that “No God” became the top twitter topic because Monotheists are [...]

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Please don’t be intimidated by the length of this post… The purpose of this post is to explore the traditional basics of fundamentalist hermeneutics and why I think it fundamentally flawed. Historical-Grammatical [-Theological] Method It is extremely difficult to “sum up” traditional Biblical hermeneutics in a short space, but I will try. First, a definition. [...]

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This blog post is inspired primarily by Grace in my previous post. I have made the claim that leaving the faith gave me a better understanding of Scripture, and it seems like a good idea to demonstrate how I think this is the case. So, I think I’m going to try a casual, laymans type [...]

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My New Journey

So, after all of this philosophizing and seeking of wisdom and the meaning of life and all that shit, I have decided to change my perspective. I am doing something different. I’m going to enjoy life. So this begins my journey into a new world. For the longest time I had this notion – probably [...]

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Confession: read title. No, seriously it just occurred to me that I don’t really like thinking about Christianity and stuff anymore. It seems like such a waste of time. I figured out what I wanted. I solved the problems I needed to. I am free, at least mentally, from the chains. I feel much like [...]

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The greatest being imaginable would have the power to make itself not exist. The only way to demonstrate this power would be to actually do it. Non-existent beings cannot make themself exist once they stop existing. Therefore, this is why God no longer exists. Checkmate! – Josh This is quite tongue in cheek.

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Leaving the faith is like untangling Christmas lights. You suddenly find, in your moment of need, that the one thing you neglected to deal with is now your biggest problem. Next thing you know, you are reviewing every single light bulb to see which ones are broken while unraveling miles of endless cord. And just [...]

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The Funk of it All

I put the phone back on the receiver with a hesitant click. Did I really almost end the message with “In Jesus’ name, amen?” Could I seriously be praying too much?

Glancing to the other side of the room I once again fell back into my mind. The thoughts haunted like an itch on the brain that you are desperately trying to scratch, but cannot. Flooding in were the doubts, the questions, the wondering at my every action and thought. Was it a lie if you had honest intentions at the time? Did you need to confess it?

An erection during church service. The horror. Every small slit of cleavage told a story of a young man’s temptation. Except for Mrs. W… I hope God doesn’t put me with a woman like her. How does her husband do it… do her. But God probably will. God knows best and often what we think is best for us is not what is best. Doubtless I would end up with an ugly woman, just so God can teach me how to be thankful for what I have. I wonder if it is all the same in the dark. I wonder what a vagina looks like. What do you call a vagina anyway? I know on men it is called a penis, but dad only explained to me what an erection was and didn’t tell me what sex actually was. I’ll bet I could find a picture of a vagina in the dictionary if I knew what it was called.

Flipping the pages one by one, each one falling with a thump that was only matched by a beat of my heart. Thump. Thump. Thump. B. r. e… a… Jesus wouldn’t want this. Jesus is watching me. Oh, how I love you Jesus, but I am dying of curiosity. A footstep upstairs. What if I was caught with my erection up and my hand on a picture of a naked woman? Lust is sin. Slide the dictionary back onto the shelf, Josh. There, Josh. Thank you Lord for helping me resist temptation…

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